Thursday, June 28, 2007 @ 11:27 AM

tired.

Being the person i am...
I feel this urge to show my anger...
But yet i cant...
i am afraid...
afraid that by doing so...
i might go back to the person whom i used to be...

had a huge event ytd...
wasnt something to rejoice about...
because of that...
i seem to have confirmed that being the jerk i am...
my mouth seem to shoot off stuff that doesnt seem to make sense...
and whats worse is that the stuff that comes out are like piercing arrows...
that aims for the heart and mind...
degrading a person mentally and emotionally...
after doing so,
my conscience takes over...
then...
i feel bad and i cant sleep...
then all the stupid thoughts that used to stop flowing past my mind suddenly flow back in again...
then all the rubbish stuff about being alone and in the darkness starts revolving again...

i am tired...
mentally tired...
spiritually tired...
physically tired...
and i know that others are also feeling the same way...

i did something stupid last night...
in a fit of anger and retardedness...
i tore up everything that i drew and stuff....
i just dont know why...
guess i shall stick to my abstract drawing...
its something i am used to and shall always stick to...
no more anime stuff anymore...

ps. sorry guys. i think i shall shut this trap of mine for the time being. it seems to add on to the problems there are in the band. esp the section. i might be a tad too quiet and stuff. no i am not emo, just trying to find my 'way home after being lost for quite some time'.

ZY

Shiki