Wednesday, June 27, 2007 @ 3:46 AM

stupid stupid!

damn...
i feel super weird now...
reflecting on what i've done this week...
other than homework and going for band...
i realized i've been quite an arrogant jerk...
pissing off quite a number of people unknowingly...
you all know that you all hate me...
just admit it....
acting like i know everything under the sun and moon...
acting like some retarded fool...
acting...
trying to become the person i aint...
trying to hide my true self again....
just coz i got too comfortable as usual...
dammit...
sometimes i feel like going to somewhere high up and screaming the hell out of my lungs...
i feel my tongue is becoming more like a double edged sword...
hurting others as well as myself...
i suppose instead of an ego...
i have an extra conscience that i hardly adknowledge...
so i feel double guilty when i do something i shldnt have done...

gah dammit dammit...
i feel like some lameass thats waiting to get his ass kicked by someone...
i am falling down that hole of self-reproach again...
Zzz
ARGH!!
Its keeping me from sleeping...

Shiki