Thursday, May 03, 2007 @ 11:40 AM

Help

I don’t know what to do now…
Someone tell me…
Cause’ I am on the verge of breaking down soon…

Talked to Edmond last night…
Realized that he is more mature than me…
Mentally stronger than me…
He isn’t all that kiddy after all…
Perhaps…
I am that kid…
Immature and full of stupid and retarded complains…

Went out for a walk last night…
As I strolled in the night…
Shadows creeping at every corner…
Waiting for a chance to strike when I let my guard down…
There, as I stood in the darkness…
Silence engulfed me…
I was alone…
Vulnerable, susceptible to all attacks…
But then…
In my mind…
Thoughts flooded my mind…
Thoughts of how stupid I was this week…
Thoughts of how my stupid irrational mouth has insulted people unknowingly…
Thoughts of going back into the darkness I used to be in…
Thoughts of how disappointed some people will be to see the pathetic state I am in now…
I guess this is how unfair the world is today…

I know…
You might say “You aren’t the only one who has problems. Think of the rest who are plagued with more problems than you do. So stop complaining like a little kid!”
I didn’t say that I am the only one with problems…
I am just using this as a medium to clear my thoughts…
Since there isn’t anyone willing to listen to my incessant rantings…
I need a listening ear…
I need a person who can console me…
And tell me “ Its alright, tomorrow will be a better day..”
As much as I would like to move on…
I still think of how you brought light to my world…
Thank you Sakura…

Well…
I think I should stop here…
My fingers are in pain…
I really hope tomorrow will be a better day...
I really hate to be alone…
I want to be in the light with all of you again…
Having fun like we used to have…
I suppose we are all rushing work and trying to adapt to our new lives…

Leon

Shiki