Tuesday, May 15, 2007 @ 2:22 AM

I just realised...
Who i really am...
finally after so long...
self-piteous once i get rejected...
arrogant the moment i get comfy...
thanks sam..
you made me realise that how small i am to everyone...
at least someone else opened up and asked...
while i..
clung on to my own world..
assuming that everything will be alright...
self-pitying myself...
drowning in self-pity...

well...
i will change..
i am willing to change...
being afraid isnt an excuse not to confront me...
pull me one side...
and tell me the truth...
tell me whats wrong...
tell me that i am a piece of trash thats about to get served...
be honest with me...
thats what i only wish from you all...
i know...
that everyone else might not like who i am...
what i do...
how i deal with things...
its true..
i tend to waver towards the arrogant side...
the moment i get accepted...
maybe its the way i speak...
maybe its the actions i do...

be honest with me...
thats what i want...
only then..
will i break away from this little world of mine...
and wake up to reality...

Shiki