Sunday, April 22, 2007 @ 9:51 PM

bye bye rooftop...

Sunday....
Overslept...
resulting in me missing church...
wth?
then i suddenly remembered that i had to go meet up with the rest of the class to see that exhibition...
rushed here and there...
digging through all my notes...
just to consolidate what i have to buy for monday at art friend...
and guess what?
i forgot to bring that stupid list...
Zzz...
guess my STM is back and here to stay....

the exhibition was....
how do i put it....
AMAZING...
INCREDIBLE...
err...
errrr....yea..
nvm...
i think you get the picture...
i will put up some of the pics later on...

anyway...
today marks the day i re-lock the key to the rooftop...
for now... rooftop access is out of my life at the moment...
i wanna move on...
move out of this darkness...
yet i feel this sense of fear...
the fear of rejection from society...
fear of hurting myself after opening up to everyone...
i guess thats why i put up this false front in front of everyone...
no one understands me inside out...
no one...
except you Sakura...

i guess smiling....
doesnt really actually mean that they are truely happy...
that smile...
could actually hide alot of things...
it could mask the pain...
the sorrow...
the disappointment...
and everything else which they want to conceal...

and here i am...
trying to make a big fuss out of everything that i have gone through...
i am trying my best to get out of this situation...
but i guess...
my best isnt my best at all...

Leon/Shiri

Shiki