Sunday, April 02, 2006 @ 7:04 PM

stressed and sad...

the weekend is rather saddening...
stressful too...
been going out to study wif my friends...
so far so good...
just that i cant withstand the huge amount of stress piling on me..
well..who can?
well here are some pics on my study time..










krystl working on her chinese hmwk..











keng siong(left) helping out...
timothy(right) too stressed??










here is me doing my ten year series...

all so hard at work...
mid-year coming le...
den is the chinese o level exam...
den prelim and o levels le..
so fast!!!

back to clearing my thoughts...
what if i died tomorrow?
will anyone care?
will anyone notice?
all it will do is traumatise everyone who saw me die...
everytime i see a group of friends chatting happily...
laughing,
playing,
gossiping,
doing practically everything together...
i feel jealous, that i am alone...
i really want to open up..
but its just that i feel that i dun fit in...
i feel very distant from everyone...
i dun have many people i can relate to...
but then...
why is it that my thoughts is always i, i, i...
me, me, me...
am i being selfish here?
maybe its just how i am...
maybe its just me...
maybe...just maybe

sometimes i just wanna stop pretending to be happy in front of everyone..
and show them my true self...
the side of which i have lost a long time ago..
because i dun wan them to worry bout me...
why bother bout a loser, a nobody like me...
correct?
everything about me is fake..
i seem to be deceiving everyone..
including myself...

Shiki