Thursday, March 16, 2006 @ 11:46 PM

so it gets wierder...

the hols are coming to its end...
well i dun call it the hols..
it doesnt even resemble a hol...
so much work..
i am suffocating...
hu cares anyway...rite?

so i am a loner...
wasnt born to be a leader...
neither born to be a follower...
so what if i rather stay away from crowds..
its better than letting pple say that i am faking it or doing it just for the sake of seeking attention...
i rather sit alone and bottle up everything...
because no one understands me..
maybe its just me..
maybe its not...
maybe.. just maybe...
i regretted opening up to others...
i regretted attempting to accept myself...
i regretted letting my true self go...

i have friends...
yes i do...
*so maybe i am not much of a loner*
but...
are they really my friends?
friends who care?
friends who tries to understand..
friends who would lend a listening ear...
friends who can see all the pain, agony, and stress i go through?
apparently i cant find any...
well like i said before...
maybe its just me...
maybe its not...
maybe... just maybe...

sometimes i wanna let it all out...
and stop bottling them up...

Shiki