Monday, March 13, 2006 @ 6:43 PM

haiz..a bad week leads into another bad week...
wadever...

moving on..
woke up at 8.45 am..
realised that i had maths lesson today...
rushed everything...
managed to reach there on time..
i still do not know what Ms Chua taught today...
although i managed to teach hafiz and ganesh...
but hu cares?
having band tml...

i am on the verge of giving up on myself...
this is really getting too stressful...
maybe its juz myself..
maybe its my fault..
maybe its always my fault...
maybe..just maybe...
i will nv know...
my problems multiply everyday...
its affecting me...
can't sleep...
can't eat as much as i usually do...
can't do anything right...
i still feel very disappointed...
disappointed for being a useless freak...
disappointed for being a failure...
disappointed for not being able to open up to others....
disappointed for constantly keeping to myself...
why?
i don't know...
anyway..hu cares rite??

i just wanna end this year quickly...
end everything...
or else...
i am gonna end myself...

as usual..
the height of the tall buildings seem to beckon to me...
beckoning to me to go there....
and after i do go up..
a voice calls me to go down quickly...
should i?
i don't really know...
sometimes..i just wanna step off....

Shiki